Hi friends! So here we are, I'm blogging now! You can now keep up with our day to day life on here! Although I keep everyone posted on whats up on facebook I though this would be more in depth and therapeutic!
Now to the title of my blog..."Getting back to what we call a normal life." Shew, easier said than done. Jeremy has been home for 3 months now and adjusting to being together again I have to admit has been rough and I think he would agree. It's really hard to understand where I'm coming from when I say we have to adjust to be together again if you haven't been away from your spouse that long. Yes we longed to be together and wanted our life together back but once you hit the 4th month of being apart knowing you have 6 or 7 months left without him you just learn to become independent and adjust to life alone. I did have one thing on my side I moved back to WV to live with my parents. Like most military spouses I didn't have our house to keep up and we don't have kids yet so it was just me and two of our fur babies. I guess some would think I had pretty easy but I would have to disagree. Yes in WV I had support from the people I loved and an awesome church family who walked with Jeremy and I the whole way but I left everything that Jeremy and I had made for ourselves and that was hard. I had to adjust to living with my mom and dad again, being limited to one room and just not having our things. I tried to make my bedroom feel as much like our home as I could but in one room you're limited with decorating space haha! I had his things all over so anywhere I looked it felt like he was there. It felt like forever til I would get to see him again until R&R passed then the next 4 months we had left flew by!
God was with us the entire year. From the moment Jeremy stepped on the bus and left my sight to the moment I saw him run into the homecoming tent with 300 other soldiers. God is still with us! I used our time apart to strength my relationship with the Lord and that I did! He put me to sleep all those nights I laid there wide awake thinking about Jeremy, he wiped my tears when I broke down and thought how am I going to make it one more day without my husband, he surrounded me with good friends and family who supported and encouraged us, he kept me busy so time would pass by fast, he kept me focused on school and allowed me to get two busy semesters under my belt and most importantly he kept Jeremy safe and focused on his mission and brought him home to me!
I feel like we have done nothing but go, go, go since the day he got home and I just want life to slow down. I feel like there's not enough time in the day to focus on my marriage, keep my house up, be a good nanny and do my school work. We must slow down. I don't want anymore than 3 plans a week on the calendar. Jeremy and I need to focus on us and spend more time together. I think we are finally letting each other back in. We got so used to doing things on our own and we're just now realizing that we have each other there to help again and all we need to do is just ask for help.
Something that is really hard for us is focusing on our relationship with God together as a couple and not just for each other. We want to bring the relationships we both have with God together as one. It shouldn't be hard but it is. It shouldn't be hard to simply pray together but it is. So our goal right now is to talk to God together. We both know how strong we both believe and we live everyday for the Lord but not together, if that makes any sense. I am ready for my husband to step up and lead me. I am totally not saying he is not a good husband. He loves me very much and supports me. He puts food on the table, gas in my car and clothes on my back. What I am saying is I'm ready for him to lead me by the example of God and be the Godly man I have longed for him to be. I love Jeremy with every piece of my heart and can't imagine life without him. I thought God was in our marriage. In a way he is because are both believers and live by example but really he's not because we aren't serving him together. I know as we begin to know God together soon we will see each other in a totally different light and we will love each other even more than we do today.
We are anxious for you to step into our marriage and take over Lord, you are going change things for us forever!
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